indulgence

last night, i accepted God once again as my Lord and Saviour. i was rebaptized in the Catholic faith. that was at 9 in the evening. by 10, i was out "celebrating" with 2 high school classmates and some friends. i was back to my old usual self--drinking beer, smoking, and dancing the dance of the devil. rowie, pillar, and i were enjoying ourselves a bit too much: picture three girls pretending to be seductive, grinding and gyrating the night in a non-dancing bar. tsk tsk tsk. by 1 in the morning, we were in a videoke place. the drinking and the dancing continued. the alcohol started to take over my body. i was losing control of my cerebral functions. by 3 am, we called it a night. but i transformed into a temptress to a friend. hmmmm... the rest of the night (err... morning) is just a blurry memory to me. bakit nga ba masarap ang bawal? just a few moments after i publicly renounced sin and satan with my fellow churchgoers, i was embracing sin again. and my conscience hasn't stopped bugging me since.